Happy August

Today is the first day of August and I'm happy. I want to start out fresh.

I've been doing p90x and I've been feeling better. I'm glad I can finally commit to exercising. Although I may have to force myself to do it, I know I'll be much happier with the end result.

I've been thinking a lot about the compliments I've been given in the past. Yes, I remember most of them. No matter how small or irrelevant, I remember them because they always make me feel good. I appreciate them a lot. One I got recently has helped me a lot. Just by someone, who I rarely talk to, saying "you're a good section leader" assured me that I am doing something right and has made me more confident in my position. But one of the best compliments I've gotten was from my friend Brittany when I "liked" her Facebook status and she told me something she liked and disliked about me, her first impression of me, and a confession. The "like" category said this:

You're one of the funniest people I know. And you're the only person I can be awkward with, without it being awkward (And I like the fact that you'll be the only person who understands that). No matter how confusing I am, you understand me inside and out, and you share my increased appeal for depressing acoustic music when the leaves change colors and become crisp. I like your laugh, because it's sincere and awkward. I like the fact that I could sit with you literally forever, and not get sick of it. I like our in-depth conversations, and all of the good times we've had. Your appreciation for the finer things in life is amazing (and by finer things, I mean the meaningless things that everyone overlooks day by day). I like the fact that your eyes are different sizes, because I don't like when things are symmetrical/typical. I like that we hung out even before we were best friends, and you dumped a giant bucket of popcorn on me, staining my favorite hoodie forever. I like when I'll say something weird, and we'll look at each other REALLY awkwardly, then burst out laughing. I like that you snuck me in your room in Florida every night until 2 am, and that we hung out every day. I like when we discuss out dislikes about people. I like when I straddle you in Katie's basement ;) hahaha. I like that I can trust you, and that you can be both crazy&outgoing and chill. I like a lot more, but I can't really think of everything right now. Oh. I like that you're one of my best friends ever, and that you're the sassiest person I've ever met.

This paragraph has made me feel better than anything in a long time. I appreciated it so much. Thanks Brittany!

Today, I watched Religulous. This documentary pretty much mocks religion and religious beliefs. It really sealed my non-belief in God and in religion. I just can't put faith and hope into something that seems so much like a fairy-tale, into something that nobody is even positive about. "But that's what faith is," some may argue. I understand that and I don't have any. I'll waste my time doing something more productive than worshiping something that may not (probably isn't) even real. I don't care, hate me for not believing in God, and hate me for saying he probably isn't real, but if you can PROVE to me that he is real, that there is evidence of him, I'll believe him in an instant.

But for right now, I'll stand strong in my beliefs. If you do argue religion around me, don't expect me to keep quiet because I'm done with that. I'm entitled to my opinion, as you are yours.

I'll probably write a blog entirely for religion soon. I've wanted to for a while.

So, I hope you have a happy first day of August. Mine has been great.

This is the first day of my life.
I'm glad I didn't die before I met you.
But now I don't care, I could go anywhere with you
and I'd probably be happy.