Alright, none of you understand.

You never will.

You're not a friend.

That's not what friends do.

Hm.

I guess you get a new haircut and that gives you free reign to be a bitch. Whatever.

The day is here.

Today, I graduate.
I feel like this is a very important time in my life, as I won't ever see half of these people ever again. This feeling is very weird to me, but it's also refreshing in a way. I get to meet new people, people who have no idea who I am, and I'm so thankful for that. I get to start being exactly who I want to be and I'm completely ready for this opportunity.

Before Senior year started, I wrote a blog about how I was ready for the year. Well, I made it through, so I guess I was prepared enough. Some of the things that happened were insane. I've gone against myself, I've learned about myself, and I've lost myself. I'm currently trying to find who I am, still, but I'm still able to be happy.

This year was one of the best I've had. Marching band was perfect. I couldn't have asked for a better show than Fureza. I met Sarah. Although things didn't work out with her, and she probably hates my guts, I care a lot about her, and I wish her the best of luck in the future. Ms. Lojewski impacted me a lot this year. I've always wanted to click with one teacher and she became the one. Every second hour, during dual-enrollment, me and Katie would sit in her classroom with her and we'd just talk. Sometimes, we'd go buy Ms. Lojewski breakfast, and we were somewhat of a Breakfast Club, as Lojo called it. She taught me so many lessons, joked around with us, and most of all, cared about me. She cared about my well-being, my school-work, and me as a person. I really appreciate all she has done for me, and I'll miss her immensely.

I actually didn't really lose any friends this year, which I'm happy about. I made new ones, like Haley, who I went to fifth grade camp with, which was so much fun! Me and her sat by each other at every meal, all of the kids said we were "making googley eyes" at each other, and we spent all of our time together. We jammed, we did the activities, had coffee breaks, and threw fruit snacks in the air while trying to catch them in our mouths, only to cover the whole porch in fruit snacks. We were the best dancers at the hoe-down, too! She definitely made the experience more fun and a lot more enjoyable.

Prom was a lot of fun. I went with Jamie-Lynn and I couldn't have asked for a better date! She's really pretty and we had a lot of fun together! After, we went up to Jamie's cabin in Canadian Lakes, and while there, we got a flat tire, and we had to drive home on a almost-flat tire because we didn't have a certain wrench to get one of the tire bolts off. The talk me and Jamie had on the last night is one that I'll never forget.

I learned a lot this school year. I learned that I'm not friends with a lot of people. I learned that I'm not out there as much as I thought and not many people know me. I learned that I need to stand up for myself and make my own decisions. I've learned how to start getting over the anxiety that I have and to get on with my life. I learned how to start being happy, even if things are pretty shitty.
I learned how to be myself.

"Charlie, I just wanted to say congratulations. Congratulations because, in a class that is completely dominated by females, you were the one guy to step up and make something of himself." Katie Stevenson made my day when she said this. Thank you, Katie, even though you'll never read this.

Now, with all of this said, I graduate today. I graduate second in my class with a 4.0377 GPA and I get to give a speech, which I'm actually nervous for, but I'm happy I get to. I hope I do well.

I'm finally done. It's sad, but it's time, and I'm fine with that. There's always a point where you have to move on, and I've reached that point. I'm trying to tell myself that I'm okay with it, and I'm just going to take the memories I have, keep them for what they are, and make more. I'm going to be happy. I'm going to be successful. I'm going to be great, I just know it.


So, after graduation, it starts. I'm going to get a job, I'm going to hangout with my friends, I'm going to go to college, hopefully meet someone who I fall absolutely in love with, and I hope to make it so far in life. I have such high hopes for the future. I want to become a musician and a writer and I have so much left to accomplish in my life.


Here's to a new chapter in life!

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Talk shit to me.
Walk all over me.
Take me for granted.
Get the same shit as me.
Nobody really likes.

Yup.

It's fine, just cut me off.

I really don't mind.